Friends

Those who does not weep,
does not seek. -Les Miserables

I never read Les Miserables, but Quentin Fields did. He died in the latest episode of One Tree Hill. I had never paid attention on him ever since he began to be part of that drama but it was shocked to see a rebellious young man who had changed into a new person with new motivation of life shot by a stranger just because he witnessed perhaps a murder. During his "funeral" (it's just a story though), I found out that he played a crucial part, being around the heroes and heroins in One Tree Hill, he is a son, a brother, a teammate in Ravens, a student, a trainee and a friend.
Life is short. Even if you struggle to be the best or in satisfactory at the turning point of your life, death may just come and take you without excuse. There is a transcript by Samantha Walker, Q's classmate that inspires me the most,
"Grief is like the ocean: it's deep and dark and bigger than all of us. And pain is like a thief in the night. Quiet. Persistent. Unfair. Diminished by time and faith and love."





If I was dead, what would my world react?
Would they weep or what would they speak of in my funeral? I will never know.






Being enrolled in KMPh is one of the biggest gift I have been given. It is not a matter of the quality of the college nor chances nor the pushing strength to make you four flat. It's about open up your mind to the same world but wider.
Life is short. But like some of my friend would ask, "Can you catch the ball?" meaning that do you realise the point? I'm posting this question to life. Indeed, life is short. Would we get enough time to figure out the point of life? Why should we? Since God decides. Then, why should we?
After almost two months out there, I knew a lots. I gained experiences. I couldn't catch the ball yet but I understand. Life is all about happiness and forgiveness. I'm happy to make friends from all around the country there. It's like a mini Malaysia. Yet, some say, it's scary to be in KMPh, too many homeworks, too many annoying people. Could you catch the ball? Everything depends on how you look at it, treat or threat, pro or corns and how you make yourself to forgive those who assault you deliberately and unexplainably.

What would you say in my funeral?
"Rachel is always writing bullshit in blogger." Haha.

But I tell you. Do not resist a evil person. If someone strikes you on the right cheek, turn to him the other also. And if someone wants to sue you and take your tunic, let him have your cloak as well. If someone forces you to go one mile, go with him two miles. Give to the one who asks you and do not turn away from the one who wants to borrow from you.- Matthew 5:38-42.

There's a friend who tell me, friends are meant to be betrayed. I was shocked to hear that from her. After all, she've been giving me good impression since she's also a believer, not baptized yet. As far as I know, she possessed woman's quality, talking behind people. It's normal since I feel it hard for her to get rid of it. Even I myself is judging people now. I shall pass judgment more strictly. But it let me down, and it let some people around her down to speak of such words. Friends are meant to be betrayed. Then why would God, make us, human to fear of alone, are we to establish friendship that is waiting for the day to be demolished by betrayal? I admit that, I do have some old and false concept, where one person had been heartbroken by chance or nature changing course, comes out with theory like, we make friends to be betrayed. Yet, I throw away that where I start to avoid those who would harm me and forgive who have harmed me, remembering their kindness instead of storing sad memory about me and them.
The world is small. Coincidence, misunderstanding and hard feeling are beyond expectation. Why would we limit ourselves to such argument? I have learned to be humble, apologize whenever I feel I hurt someone, making he or she uneasy, and laugh away when hearing complaints about friends by friends.
The world is big. People walks in and out of your life. Why should you limit yourself with those who dissapoint and at once forget those who cheer you up, being supportive at any time by your side?
Friends are not meant to be betrayed yet to betray. They are meant to be here, if you personally also agree with me.









If you wish to leave your name, fame and glory on the earth, perhaps somewhere, some part...if you wish to see a drop of tear, a 60 seconds of mourn in your funeral, they are here, friends. They make you meant to be here.